I've been doing a lot of thinking lately....scary I know, ha! There's been a lot of events in my life lately that have brought me so much joy and happiness and yet it seems as if I'm never quite satisfied. Does any one else seem to have this problem? I look around and there's so many reasons for me to be thankful and especially when you watch the news.....so much sadness and people who have lost so much and have so little. Then I feel terrible for carrying on like I do about all of my so-called "problems" when clearly I have nothing to complain about. Oh, woe is me!!! (My poor husband)
I also have been contemplating how I've been balancing the areas in my life and it occurred to me that I really haven't been doing that well at it. I am the type of person that wants to be the best at everything I do.....being a mom, wife, cooking, keeping the house clean, photography, exercise, etc.etc. etc....the list just goes on and on. Lately though I have been just "getting by" in each area and not really putting my whole heart into any one thing. Time gets away from me and at the end of the day I look around I'm not sure what I even got accomplished.
I think when it comes down to it, my priorities have been a little misplaced. Does anyone else have a love-hate relationship with the internet? :) I also need to learn to let some things go. Who cares if my laundry stack is a mile high, dinner is another frozen lasagna from costco and I can't remember if I showered? Those are things that I shouldn't let bother me and I should really be taking that time to play "trucks" another time with little man and reading another round of "the big road race" . I think being a mom has many emotional facets....I tend to feel guilty a lot about not measuring up. We all just need to stop beating ourselves up about the things we just can't do as well as others. :)
I am so lucky and have the best family ever and I really just need to remember that. I hope you all are better at keep the "balance" than me, let me know if you have any pearls of wisdom or thoughts on the matter :) much love, Jen